Credits: Sonia.C
missyhappygolucky is a union of two blogs i previously owned, namely a-girl-like-joanne(March 2005- Feburary 2007) and part-of-joanne(March 2007- September 2007).
instead of the continuation of the name sotong, missyhappygolucky is choosen because most of my friends think i used to behave like one.
unfortunately, this attitude has disappear with time. i hope with the use of this name will allows it to return and be part of me again.
all posts are original entries. be warned that some of the entries might disgust you. i have to admit i feel extremely upset to know i have a childish past. (things are better later when i start using proper english) still, i managed to surpress my urge of editing them, so to present you the exact person i was.
THANK YOU for being interested to find out about my past.
dated: 29 July 2009
foreword
all posts are original entries. be warned that some of the entries might disgust you. i have to admit i feel extremely upset to know i have a childish past. (things are better later when i start using proper english) still, i managed to surpress my urge of editing them, so to present you the exact person i was.
THANK YOU for being interested to find out about my past.
dated: 29 July 2009
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Monday, June 18, 2007
i just watch spider lilies (刺青) on youtube.com (if you also wanna watch it, it's on http://www.perfection-shujuan.blogspot.com/, my friend's cystal's blog. it's in mandrain without any subtitles.) it's not exactly all about lebsians. but rather on tattoo. she owes and tattoo shop and had a tattoo of spider lilies for an identity so her brother remembers her as his sister(their dad had spider lilies on his arm and was the only memory owes by her brother, after losing his dad in a earthquake), the other look up at that identity as a key to her first love, another one, wanted an identity of courage. okay, i dont quite understand what happened in the end, but i could feel the emotions. the identity of courage was put into wrong use and ended up bloody. to see your broken hand in front of you, is dreadful. maybe, the owe the spider lilies on her arm made matter worse, she cant make any promise to her first love, ended up breaking her heart. white lilies was actually (to me) the sign of fallen out of your first love, gave her a morning call that everything was just imaginary. well, maybe i need a morning call too.. feeling rather emo these days. i cant explain why. but there are moments where i felt so lost and wanted to cry. i having lots of doubt in why i am in NRA (dance club) when i am so noob. i went for NRA camp last weekend. it was totally cool and fun, was laughing my way off but i'm not all happy i realised one thing, i really have problem interacting with people these days. i had no dance background and i learn steps real slowly. perhaps some looked down at me, some of us had nothing to talk about.. i felt so lousy for the fact that i'm lousy. my confidence level is falling towards the centre of gravity, and i dont know if i cant resistance the force. maybe i aint suppose to be there? maybe it was all imaginary that i got into the club? i dont know.. kenneth have been giving me a lot of support. thanks boy! i know you think i'm good, i know i can be good but for the time being, i think i cant. but i'll go on.. i need to learn not to look down at myself and stop being bothered on how others look at me. i need my confidence to become myself again.. (PEOPLE, THIS IS JUST ANOTHER RANDOM POST, DONT BE WORRIED FOR ME, I'M OKAY.) Joanne |