Credits: Sonia.C
missyhappygolucky is a union of two blogs i previously owned, namely a-girl-like-joanne(March 2005- Feburary 2007) and part-of-joanne(March 2007- September 2007).
instead of the continuation of the name sotong, missyhappygolucky is choosen because most of my friends think i used to behave like one.
unfortunately, this attitude has disappear with time. i hope with the use of this name will allows it to return and be part of me again.
all posts are original entries. be warned that some of the entries might disgust you. i have to admit i feel extremely upset to know i have a childish past. (things are better later when i start using proper english) still, i managed to surpress my urge of editing them, so to present you the exact person i was.
THANK YOU for being interested to find out about my past.
dated: 29 July 2009
foreword
all posts are original entries. be warned that some of the entries might disgust you. i have to admit i feel extremely upset to know i have a childish past. (things are better later when i start using proper english) still, i managed to surpress my urge of editing them, so to present you the exact person i was.
THANK YOU for being interested to find out about my past.
dated: 29 July 2009
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
i've been reading the u-weekly. joel brought it for it's cover story, s.h.e. i read the synopses, horoscope reading and analysis, tests on personality and text on modern princesses. haaha, yes, i dint read the cover story. i dont go for those. they wrote it for the sake of writing, you know. it's repeated over and over again in all the mags. i preferred those featured from in-person interviews. =P after reading that text ( on modern princesses) , i realised being a commoner is better than anything. they suffered more than any other girl. died at a young age, revoked the royal rules, experienced love crisis over and over again. stress, restriction & corruption. the norway's princess left me the deepest impression. she married a mere writer depise the fact that she'll have to lose her throne. she trusted her spouse, thot the media reported him as a flirt times again. she led the life of a commoner and made much achievements in her career. she is one brave woman i'd staute. we should be content with what we possessed. oh yes, i was asked to pick between two guys some time ago. (it's a IF question) they both loved me, shared the same personalities and are the ones i'm looking for. the only difference was one being rich and the other, poor. i insisted that it's impossible. i did gave my answer after much consideration. ( haaha, they got so pissed off over me thinking too much into the matter.) majority picked the rich boy. i want the poor guy, because i wanna lead the simplest & fulfilling life. =P such a weirdo. i've been complaining about my class for the past week. i was pretty depressed but not anymore. i like my class. no doubt they are as scary as i thot. yes, it is contridicting. perhaps i walked the state of darkness. kenneth was pretty right, i thot. i dint change, it was just my confidence level fell due to my emotions. it was poor mangement of much sarcasm and disappointment. thanks for the support when i needed it most! you reminded me of mrs devan, my previous humans cum form teacher. she was the only teacher who had faith in my abilites. depise being the sleepyhead in class, she never fail to encourage me to strive for good result. i'm touched. haaha, i miss her so much! * sobs* as much as i'll never forget that moment i received my Nlevel results. my phar has finally gave me a full description of myself via my facial features. i am very independent. i am a quick thinker. i am intelligent. i am a happy-go-lucky person whom can handle stress. i am too stubborn. people cant never gain advantage of me. (haaha, doubt so.) words with good intentions which sounded like trash could never get to me. ( that's very true) i am lazy. i rush into things but end up repeating it over again. i held grudges firmly in my hands. a typical me, very precise readings i'd say. these are some things i could work on to make a better me. first, i have to set target and get moving. second, pace down and listen. third, being able take complains and make quick yet accurately analysis. fourth, to let it go for the fact that it will never be mine. finally, i found what i was looking for. no more dead knots. jiayou, joanne! you can do it! haaha, that's me! =P Joanne
Joanne Monday, August 21, 2006
it's almost 5 in the morning. i woke up from sleep around 3.30am. i rinsed my mouth, had a little hot milk, and i thot i should write before i go into coma, again. words carry strong meanings, dont they? i guess i do misuse them, sometimes. deceive was the word i used at firdaus' tagboard. it took me some time to realise what a person i am. i find it tough listing the characteristics i possessed. i'm not exactly like them lahx.i'm still the good old joanne he knew, just a little lost. this made a great impact on our relationship, we'll pull it thru. kahfai asked me a favour to get him lyrics of two songs. i made up to my promise. he took it from me and started singing. we critized each other. (as usual, i do it every time i hear him sing.) i said his singing sucks and he called me a auntie. ~words again. i touched his hair. and HAIR are the most vunlerable part of vain guys. it was until then, i thot i offended him. he messed up my hair and pulled my rubberband off my hair. oh well, my fault mahx. the first time i did was to look out for siewling's comb. i heard eileen and yihui calling me a merlion. ~word again. that's so hurtful. it wasnt that pong lehx. i went back to my seat at the back and tie my hair as neatly as possible. firdaus was kind and consoled me abit. he thot it was very bad of them to call me that name. then, for some idiotic reasons, kahfai threw my hairpin on the floor. wah lau eh, fuming. i got really pissed off this time. i tolerated every of his nonsense, not this time. lau niang also got temper one lehx. i ordered him to get my hairpin back, immediately. and for the first time, he was obedient. (thot he asked devan to pick it up for him) perhaps he'd see the fire racing in my eyes. i guess i pick up a fight with zifeng. i saw yanrong was crying. i was very worried about her. i thot it was him, again, disturbing her. i confronted him like how i did in the past. ~words again. this time, he got real furious. he shouted at me, unwilling to listen to my explanation. my mistake for not trusting him well enough. many were shocked seeing that. yangzi came up and helped me a little. yanrong went home along with her mother later on. matter rest. my apology to rosalind. i said she owned mr chua big time since he did her project. ~words again. she told me off, fuming and then marched out of the workshop. haix, it was such a harse statement. she brought her mechinism and got the finishing done. haix, my stupidness has gone up a higher level. no progress on my prototype. wait is all i can do now. haaha, not exactly lahx. i have a folio to complete. damn not motivated to work. mr phar, my chinese teacher told me that i need to work harder than the others. i wont lead an easy life due to my stubborness. i guess he's right. i experienced it all now. thx to him, i got to know myself even better. gotta go for a personality makeover! haaha. oh yeah. this is impt! introducing to you Kenneth, my blog fan! whaahahaahahaa.. .. .. he finshed reading most of my posts within a night or so. what's more impressive was he dint find it boring. haaha. finally, there is someone out there whose willing to read my rubbish. but he was rather disappointed with what i've wrote perviously. to my dear boy, i wont be writing stuff that are too positive. until i found my true self. wish me luck! =] Joanne Sunday, August 20, 2006
~saturday~ it was a very thoughtful and emotional day for me. i kinda realise was kind of person i am now. i woke up at 7.30am, only having 4 hrs of sleep. all for the sake of my prototype! it was a rocky start. i finally gathered all the materials. yet, i knew nuts on how to work with it. i broke a piece of high carbon steel. mr chua shouted at me, infront of everyone, for my stupidity and the lack of EQ. could you imagined that? it was damn embrassed. how much i wished i'd hide under the table. no help from him and shouted for something i dint know? i couldnt care much but to put on a damn fucked up face. later that day he told me his reason and was willing to help me. mr chua said i'd only finish it after the deadline, with his help of course. i dreamt of the idea but seems like i dont have much a choice. i called that death over died. i realised i'm a follower. i need people to instruct me. i was more like an idiot wearing a square hat. yangzi's bicycle made my day. she brought it to school to test her project. (it teaches one to learn cycling at home, cool, isnt it?) i cycled it around the carpark few times & even had a biased race against jianwei. i managed to put sadness away and smiles from the bottom of my heart. after the long chat with veron and yangzi at mcdonalds, i realised i'm not as simple as i thot. i am cunning. i backstake others. i talked too much crap. i seeked lots of attention. i am a laidback. i am faked at times. i am a geniune 5A1 student. that's how original i am. perhaps mrs goh was right. i've changed towards evil. jealousy taught me that. fustration gave support. nothing good could bother much. i always thinks i was a 5A2 student living in 5A1, not anymore now. sorry firdaus, i decevied you. i felt real guilty. may all of you be like me, hope for the better me! haaha. Joanne Friday, August 18, 2006
was that my mistake? we dont talk in class. i dont laugh at her jokes anymore. she kept slient whenever i'm involved in the conversation. i felt uncomfortable seeing her emotionless face. he said that she wasnt angry with me at all already, but i felt otherwise. i did tried talking to her, but it was really weird, you get it? was i being too sensitive? perhaps too much thots and emos were involved. they are living in their world. it is a dimension where i wasnt granted a pass to enter. i felt like as if i'm the "bitch no. 2" in class. of course, i'm much better off than her. (not a loner) rather than talking, i can be more focus and be on task. not too bad after all, isnt it? besides, i have a lot to catch up. i havent started on my prototype yet, but soon. hopefully i can finish it within the three to four afternoons. working on the folio would be most ideal now. mummy gets too emo these days. she nags more than she does, did it with a chirs-sand-dough style. both joel and i were very annoyed. we even shouted at her, thot we shouldn't be doing that. i think she's suffering from depression. should i bring her to a cousellor? i thot daddy was the one who couldnt accept the fact that his twins are in the NA stream. now i finally understand his kind intention. he just wanted us to get a good O cert. that was why he shook his head if i'd fail my N and landed in a ITE college. (choy!) having a good O cert is essential. it can lead you to a better life. i dint mean that ITE isnt good. really, no offence. you see, my cousins either went into JC or ploy. daddy was the eldest son, i have to save "some face" for him mahx. frankly, i'm utterly disappoint with my mother. she rather go out there and lie to those aunties at the market that we are currently in sec 4. hey, what so bad about being a sec 5 student? i am proud of being a sec 5. yeah, no doubt i looked down at students of the normal stream in the past. but i was given the wrong impression of them. i tried talking some sense into her brain, but there was no avail. forget it man. darling was right. i dont think i should be there. i cant be one and i'll never be. so as for siewling. i dont know about the rest, little do i care for them. perhaps, we'd have to join "the nomads" for english, again. we're enjoying it,arent we? haaha. oh yeah, some great news to share. my first NAFA event, the 2.4km run. i was a little asthmatic when i was supposed to run two weeks ago. i made myself to complete the 3 rounds at target timings. the first round was fine. the cramps i dreamt of came in the next two rounds. i paced down, pressed on the cramped. it did went off a little. fortunately, i made it at 14.01 mins, just right an A. i first thing i did (after completing it) was to knee down, tired and delighted. i made it! that was such a satisfaction. and guess what? i was the fastest ( girl) in my class! woah, i was totally amazed by my own abilities. and my winning strategy was time management. i knew just what i wanted. i made a plan and it worked! haaha. that will be the way i'll work on my subjects. it's great, use it, damn effective arh. haaha. Joanne Thursday, August 17, 2006
mr chua found out my problem. bo bian, i gotta do a prototype. only a week away from the deadline. will i make it? lets wait and see. i need to venger my disatisfaction. i felt no sense of belonging in my class. i'm casted out, i guess. why am i always the one to accomedate? the more i stay in there, the more i become more cunning. i blamed everything but not myself, she said. i must stay calm. hell them. no matter what, i'll be myself. people thinks the way i cried looked fake. i had enough. i must leave this place, this sickening and scary place. Joanne Tuesday, August 15, 2006
what's wrong with me? what's wrong with everything? i'm so down in luck. working on my project was a torture. my project was a simple one, but it's far from done. mr chua was too busy to get me my material. mr lee and mr tan helped to with the lathe and taping. just as i thot everything would go well, problems surfaced. there's no way for me to bend my metal with bare hands. i took time searching for help online. i found it. little i expect a disaster. .jpg) .jpg) see those pictures above? the rod craked. i was mute when i see it. there's only 10 days before the deadline. haix. i found another source of help. please arh~ i cant take it anymore le~ allow me to finish my project smoothly~ i gotta say thank you and sorry to you guys; weina, eileen, jianwei, rinto & zifeng. spend so much time travelling all the way to Lavander. weina and eileen dint got their items because it was too late. my fault bahx. depressed. i dont know how to make up for them. i think something dirty is following me. the dog living right opposite barked at me for no reason. i'd have to stare at it and it'll stop. but it dint. i'm like so suay. i guess i have to make a trip to the temple. it may sound supertitious, safety is now the priority. how much i wish everything dint happened. i dont know how i am going to face weina & eileen. can i pon school for one day? i still not brave enough. haix. bad day. daniel powter, could you pen a song "it wont be bad for long"? that might cheer me up a bit. Joanne Monday, August 14, 2006
it was very cooling in the morning nehx. mrs lee was going thru meger sep today. i realised it a really easy topic. gonna bang hard on this. i would like to apologise to mrs lee. actually that was the way she cares for her students. i was very hot lahx. then spoke rubbish. sorry mrs lee. =] kana conned today. i brought my metal rod to this mini factory at kallang avenue last saturday. finally i can get my metal bend! haaha. happy. the uncle asked me to drop by again today to collect. i went back of course. i reached and saw my metal. still straight, seems untouched. haix. uncle lied to me. he got to rush another project then got no time for mine. haix. sadden. zifeng was very kind and accompany me there. but it was all a wasted trip. thanks zifeng. haaha. i was very hungry and tired. i only had cereal and milo this morning, nothing for lunch. haahaa. i got home but my mother was taking her bath. i ended up sleeping on the floor for hours. haaha. just had my dinner. and i'm going to bed soon. please lahx. let me get my bended workpiece tomorrow! please! :'( Joanne Monday, August 7, 2006
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suprised that kenneth added me on MSN yesterday. he came to the BBQ Party last saturday with karin. they are so sweet~ kenneth was very caring towards karin and karin dint mind him talking all out there. (most of us were girls.) i envy the strong bond & trust they had in each other. haa. anyway, we had a long conversation last night. he gave me much guidance on the plan for my revision. many tips on how to start.. .. and he even offered me notes! haa. he was such a great help to me. i felt motivated to work harder for success! thx lots. i've received my CT 3 papers today. i think i dint fair badly afterall. i considered myself being morally insane because i got 24/30 for CME. haaha. and the joke is, the bitch got the highest by obtaining 27/30! oh man, she's an 'angel'. haaha, it must be the work of christ and his holy bible. (no offence) she dont look like someone of high moral to me. opps, i sound sacastic. but who cares? you would probably be nodding your head in agreement and rolling on the floor, laughing. haaha. for one time, i passed my english paper! woohoo! shiok arh! the passage was so interesting yet the questions were tough to answer. a short passage from the Open Windows by Phillip Yancay, was about the preservance of keeping art deep down in the hearts of prisoners in concentration camp in Germany during WW2. (phew, that was long.. ..) i wasnt in my best condition when attemping those questions. now i realised i can do much better when i'm sick. haaha, rmb the time during Nlevels.. .. lolx. oh yeah, my score. 22/40. my mom would be shouting at me for being so overjoyed. but, she dint know, i'm the highest (for the time being) those pro next door havent got their results back. couldnt i just be a little, just a little proud of myself? haaha. happy me. :D Joanne |