sotongintehpeng

Monday, August 21, 2006 it's almost 5 in the morning. i woke up from sleep around 3.30am. i rinsed my mouth, had a little hot milk, and i thot i should write before i go into coma, again. words carry strong meanings, dont they? i guess i do misuse them, sometimes. deceive was the word i used at firdaus' tagboard. it took me some time to realise what a person i am. i find it tough listing the characteristics i possessed. i'm not exactly like them lahx. i'm still the good old joanne he knew, just a little lost. this made a great impact on our relationship, we'll pull it thru. kahfai asked me a favour to get him lyrics of two songs. i made up to my promise. he took it from me and started singing. we critized each other. (as usual, i do it every time i hear him sing.) i said his singing sucks and he called me a auntie. ~words again. i touched his hair. and HAIR are the most vunlerable part of vain guys. it was until then, i thot i offended him. he messed up my hair and pulled my rubberband off my hair. oh well, my fault mahx. the first time i did was to look out for siewling's comb. i heard eileen and yihui calling me a merlion. ~word again. that's so hurtful. it wasnt that pong lehx. i went back to my seat at the back and tie my hair as neatly as possible. firdaus was kind and consoled me abit. he thot it was very bad of them to call me that name. then, for some idiotic reasons, kahfai threw my hairpin on the floor. wah lau eh, fuming. i got really pissed off this time. i tolerated every of his nonsense, not this time. lau niang also got temper one lehx. i ordered him to get my hairpin back, immediately. and for the first time, he was obedient. (thot he asked devan to pick it up for him) perhaps he'd see the fire racing in my eyes. i guess i pick up a fight with zifeng. i saw yanrong was crying. i was very worried about her. i thot it was him, again, disturbing her. i confronted him like how i did in the past. ~words again. this time, he got real furious. he shouted at me, unwilling to listen to my explanation. my mistake for not trusting him well enough. many were shocked seeing that. yangzi came up and helped me a little. yanrong went home along with her mother later on. matter rest. my apology to rosalind. i said she owned mr chua big time since he did her project. ~words again. she told me off, fuming and then marched out of the workshop. haix, it was such a harse statement. she brought her mechinism and got the finishing done. haix, my stupidness has gone up a higher level. no progress on my prototype. wait is all i can do now. haaha, not exactly lahx. i have a folio to complete. damn not motivated to work. mr phar, my chinese teacher told me that i need to work harder than the others. i wont lead an easy life due to my stubborness. i guess he's right. i experienced it all now. thx to him, i got to know myself even better. gotta go for a personality makeover! haaha. oh yeah. this is impt! introducing to you Kenneth, my blog fan! whaahahaahahaa.. .. .. he finshed reading most of my posts within a night or so. what's more impressive was he dint find it boring. haaha. finally, there is someone out there whose willing to read my rubbish. but he was rather disappointed with what i've wrote perviously. to my dear boy, i wont be writing stuff that are too positive. until i found my true self. wish me luck! =] Joanne