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Friday, August 18, 2006 was that my mistake? we dont talk in class. i dont laugh at her jokes anymore. she kept slient whenever i'm involved in the conversation. i felt uncomfortable seeing her emotionless face. he said that she wasnt angry with me at all already, but i felt otherwise. i did tried talking to her, but it was really weird, you get it? was i being too sensitive? perhaps too much thots and emos were involved. they are living in their world. it is a dimension where i wasnt granted a pass to enter. i felt like as if i'm the "bitch no. 2" in class. of course, i'm much better off than her. (not a loner) rather than talking, i can be more focus and be on task. not too bad after all, isnt it? besides, i have a lot to catch up. i havent started on my prototype yet, but soon. hopefully i can finish it within the three to four afternoons. working on the folio would be most ideal now. mummy gets too emo these days. she nags more than she does, did it with a chirs-sand-dough style. both joel and i were very annoyed. we even shouted at her, thot we shouldn't be doing that. i think she's suffering from depression. should i bring her to a cousellor? i thot daddy was the one who couldnt accept the fact that his twins are in the NA stream. now i finally understand his kind intention. he just wanted us to get a good O cert. that was why he shook his head if i'd fail my N and landed in a ITE college. (choy!) having a good O cert is essential. it can lead you to a better life. i dint mean that ITE isnt good. really, no offence. you see, my cousins either went into JC or ploy. daddy was the eldest son, i have to save "some face" for him mahx. frankly, i'm utterly disappoint with my mother. she rather go out there and lie to those aunties at the market that we are currently in sec 4. hey, what so bad about being a sec 5 student? i am proud of being a sec 5. yeah, no doubt i looked down at students of the normal stream in the past. but i was given the wrong impression of them. i tried talking some sense into her brain, but there was no avail. forget it man. darling was right. i dont think i should be there. i cant be one and i'll never be. so as for siewling. i dont know about the rest, little do i care for them. perhaps, we'd have to join "the nomads" for english, again. we're enjoying it,arent we? haaha. oh yeah, some great news to share. my first NAFA event, the 2.4km run. i was a little asthmatic when i was supposed to run two weeks ago. i made myself to complete the 3 rounds at target timings. the first round was fine. the cramps i dreamt of came in the next two rounds. i paced down, pressed on the cramped. it did went off a little. fortunately, i made it at 14.01 mins, just right an A. i first thing i did (after completing it) was to knee down, tired and delighted. i made it! that was such a satisfaction. and guess what? i was the fastest ( girl) in my class! woah, i was totally amazed by my own abilities. and my winning strategy was time management. i knew just what i wanted. i made a plan and it worked! haaha. that will be the way i'll work on my subjects. it's great, use it, damn effective arh. haaha. Joanne