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Saturday, August 20, 2005 [listening to elva's greatest hits:Beautiful Episode.. like the song "ta he he de gu shi-his & her's story..] slack around at home.. woke up,eat,sleep,bathe,eat & later sleep.. wah lau..kana waken up by the TV.. its because reufu sang fan fu ji hao.. omg..not that nice.. just cant control my fustration i had for my mum.. she's naggy & i hate being nagged.. she's dont admit her mistakes & insist that she's right.. worse,she blamed me for her mistakes & even accused me for not admitting my mistake.. & the way she talks.. she sound so demanding & she say its her rights to do so.. then accused me for being very bossy & order her to do things.. at least i say "can you.." "please leh.." during conversations,she always says "someone & that someone..","that thing & that thing.." who can understand what she's trying to talk about? always scold me & insult me.. pek chek ar.. then she very fan lor.. at least i feel much better now.. expression all my unhappiness out.. do i sounds like i'm a bad daughter right? kept complaining about my mum.. i think its better for me to express my feelings out then keeping them in myself & get 'internal injuries'.. i always wanted to get her a hard slap when she smacks me.. if she's healthy without any illness.. i see her getting physical weaker every year.. heartaches lah.. whatever.. i think its both of our fault for all these fights.. cause i'm stubborn,lazy,harsh & hot-tempered.. then she's so naggy that it's irritates me easily.. sometimes i cant understand how joel stands her nagging lor.. then about joel.. i know he hated me for interupting his life.. like how i dislike him to know about my life.. got so fustrated by him for being so insensitive.. mei zi should know what i'm talking about.. i think he's know what he's doing.. maybe he just forget to got a thought for how other feels.. or maybe he still hasnt learn how to be a good 'another half'.. i duno.. write more about him next time.. stay tuned!..[lol!] just fought with her again.. pek chek lor.. always fight over the same thing.. cause i'm using the pc in the middle of the night.. stupid leh.. heng my father is at work now.. cant imagine if we are so noisy til we woke him up.. worse,she shouted vulgars at me.. caused i think she lost at words.. i always lose out to people whenever i agrue with them.. it's a different case here.. my mother is always the first to lose.. then she will hit me or use vulgars when she cant do anything to me.. dont let me lose control.. caused i can kill her if i lose myself.. i'm sure i can.. [PS:i didnt mean to be rude to you..less nags will help stop me from being rude..] ~YR baobei's blog~ got new family members le.. sometimes i feel we are not close but that close.. whahaha..funny hor.. i think we sure have sometimes we dislike about each other.. as long we learn to give & take,we are still a happy family! regarding about your 'daddy'.. erm,you guys really want a 'daddy' ar? quite hard to get lor.. lao ma ar? he's not bad.. thats why i..you know.. but hor..not possible lah.. dont think so much lor.. it's good enough since we talk.. somemore he did show alittle "concern" about me.. friends better.. then what about you? stuck between two guys who shows feelings & concern for you.. heehee.. maybe i thought too much.. but i believe what my instincts tell me.. they could always wanted to be more than a friend.. you never know too.. am i right,ZF?? ~myself~ what had happened to you? why are you behaving like a idiot? dont you rmb you are a girl? you gotta stop all those boyish behaviours! you gotta be more positive & serious about your life! dont just sit there & think of your future & dreams.. you gotta make them happen in reality! as soon as possible.. to be a better person.. heehee..end here.. i'm like a bad soul today.. complains so much.. haix.. hopefully tomorrow would be a better day for me! Joanne